The year 2020 is over and gone. I can’t believe I am well and my family is safe. I am truly thankful for the blessing of health and safety. For me, 2020 was full of uncertainties and I realized that I feared losing my life. As a nurse working in a hospital setting, I am aware of the risk of acquiring certain diseases because of being exposed to various medical cases which is part of our job. However, I never anticipated that a pandemic would happen. I was anxious about going to work every day since, at least initially, we did not have any PPE (personal protective equipment). This fact combined with the reality of having an autoimmune disease bothered me. I was terrified of the future. Another fear I had was that I could easily pass on the virus to my family especially to my grandmother who is currently staying with us. I had to take a bath immediately after my long twelve-hour shifts just so I could have the peace of mind I needed. Talking to God kept me going, and as the days went by, my fears slowly faded away. I know in my heart that my God will always take care of me even if I don’t see Him personally. I am certain that He will never abandon me and that all I needed was to claim all His promises in His words. Before the pandemic, I thought I could do things on my own. However, I now realize that everything I am able to achieve accomplish could be gone in a snap as if it was just a bubble in the air.
Pray and ask God for guidance
Prayer is the best weapon we have in this life. Thus, talking to God shouldn’t be neglected. When we tell God our worries, fears, and struggles we will feel a sense of relief knowing that He will never judge us and that He truly cares for us. It is helpful to know that we could freely open up our hearts to Him anytime and anywhere and for free. We can tell him the specific things that bother us and make us sad. He alone will never be tired of hearing the seemingly endless drama of our lives. He doesn’t only love us when we are at our best but He loves us more in our worst. He’s always willing to listen to our stories; He has a genuine love for us His children. At times I long for a physical friend who could listen to me and tell me what to do when I feel lost. I am blessed with godly friends who are like a family to me but because of distance we seldom talk to each other. However, not having a friend nearby made me talk to God more and whenever I need some advice I find the Bible immensely useful. It makes me hopeful and grateful. It is genuinely rewarding to set aside a specific time of the day to meditate upon God’s word. Thus, prayer must not only be a part of our life but our way of life.
Surrender to God
Consecrate yourself to God in the morning; make this your very first work. Let your prayer be, “Take me, O Lord, as wholly Thine. I lay all my plans at thy feet. Use me today in thy service. Abide in me, and let all my work be wrought in thee. This is a daily matter. Each morning consecrate yourself to God for that day. Surrender all your plans to Him, to be carried out or, given up as His providence shall indicate. Thus day by day you may be giving your life into the hands of God, and thus, your life will be molded more and more after the life of Christ. The life of Christ is a life of restfulness. There may be no ecstacy of feeling, but there should be an abiding, peaceful trust. Your hope is not in yourself; it is in Christ. Your weakness is united to His strength, your ignorance to His wisdom, your frailty To His enduring might. So you are not to look to yourself, not to let the mind dwell upon self, but to look to Christ. Let the mind dwell upon His love, upon the beauty, perfection of His character. Christ in His self-denial, Christ in His humiliation, Christ in His purity and holiness, Christ in His matchless love-this is the subject of the soul contemplation. It is by loving Him, copying Him, depending wholly upon Him, that you are to be transformed to His likeness. (SC 80-81)